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I wanna be that Guy

collegesoccerpro877 — Fri, 16 Oct 2009 01:08:44 +0000

I wanna be that Guy

Baby I wanna be that guy…

The one that holds you when you cry,

Takes care of you when you are sick,

The one you argue with,

The one that takes you to do new things,

The one that takes you to go mountain biking…

I wanna be the guy that is always there for you,

The guy that comforts you and brings you up when you are down,

The one that turns your day inside out,

The one that buys you gifts,

The guy that you cant stop thinking about,

I want to be that guy that always puts a smile on your face and whenever a frown appears its only because such powerful emotions expectations are high,

Baby I wanna be the guy that you marry,

I wanna be the guy that is true to you,

I want to be the guy that you miss when away,

The guy that has kids with you,

The guy that makes love to you,

I wanna be the guy that buys you those weird late night foods when you are pregnant,

The guy that you go to church with,

The guy that you love and loves you…

Baby I wanna be the guy that has all your emotions

I wanna be the guy that you are loyal too,

I wanna be the only guy in your life,

Honey I just wanna be yours

Forever…

And ever…

Posted in heart, Love, Love advice, Love Letter, Love Lost poem, love song, New love, Sweet, sweet song

Hide and Seek

collegesoccerpro877 — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 06:02:37 +0000

Here i go again

Got way less than what i put in

Always not what i ask for

Is this what i deserve

I had you

You lost me

Make me wonder

Is this what my life’s supposed to be

With so much heart ache

An always being down

I thought for once I found the girl

Who’d turn my life around

You dont wanna loose me, Or so you say

But fail to show me each, n every day

So leave me where i lay

So i can put an end to taday

You’ve been wandering around,

In my head for too long

Got lost, scared an turned around

Fail as I try, yet try with all my might

Jus to watch you leave till outta sight

Was it me, was it you?

Tell me, cuz i dont have a clue

To the puzzle of our own existence,

Like the high you make me feel for instance.

You dont wanna loose me, Or so you say

But fail to show me each, n every day

So leave me where i lay

So i can put an end to taday

What I would do for you,

What would you do for me?

I only with I knew,

To see you through,

The end of time and again

You are amoung the lucky few…

You dont wanna loose me, Or so you say

But fail to show me each, n every day

So leave me where i lay

So i can put an end to taday

A love lost…

Is not a love…

So are you lost…?

Or are you..found…?

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Live to Love, Love to Live

collegesoccerpro877 — Sun, 30 Aug 2009 19:38:36 +0000

this world was made of one an another,
blazin the j and pass it to a brother.
live to never regret an the good times, never forget.
good things come to those whom wait
read the pitch before u step to the plate.

listen to my advice, n dont think twice
live to love n love to live
you make mistakes, learn to forgive
with true love there is no obsticle too great,
for love will make you conquor your fate.

you never know what you have till its gone is what they say.
but why must we push to get to that point anyway.
Love whom you are and whom youre with
for tomorrow, reality may be a myth.

I met this one girl, not from this world
the one that becomes your alternate world
love at first sight, with auora so bright, she’s my light, at night.
she came as someone id least expect
but we share this love ill never forget.

my lil “brown eyed girl”, she takes me for a whirl.
she opened my eyes and live in the skies
heaven sparkles in your eyes, n with a smile that’ll be my demise.
all the butterflies, that blow away all my highs.

they say time heals, but it hasnt how my heart feels
three years since we last touched
making time spent unforgetably clutched
with you I finally become whole, life without you started to take its toll.
ive lived without you too long, n this i must admit too…
i wrote this whole poem to say ill do anything to be with you.

Posted in Goodbye poem, heart, Love, Love advice, Love Letter, Love Lost poem, love song, Moving on story, New love, song, Song to Friend, Sweet, sweet song

Deja Vu’

collegesoccerpro877 — Fri, 31 Jul 2009 10:00:58 +0000

My baby, we’ve always been meant to be

You have no idea how much you mean to me.

Ever since i saw you i knew you were mine

Now here we are two hearts we combine.

Your eyes they take me to this other place

Makes the whole world loose pace

Been staring at your pictures for hours

Thanking god each minute he makes ours

You n I we’ll conquor this world together baby you n me

Like pirates settin forth on the open sea…

I wanna thank you, for seeing the good in me

Overlooked all the bad an saw how good life can be

All the pain and blood that Ive tasted

Is all the while worth the years Ive wasted

Cuz now I’ve found you

And you’ve got me too

Ive seen this before in a dream

Where I have the most beautiful girl this world’s ever seen

You came it what seemed my darkest hour

Turned my life to meaning from the bitter-sour

I now have the will to go on thanks to you

Making my miracle come true

Doesn’t matter what our future may hold

As long as you n I together we grow old

All the pain and blood that Ive tasted

Is all the while worth the years Ive wasted

Cuz now I’ve found you

And you’ve got me too

Without you…this world is hopeless

Say you’ll never leave so we can make this

Without you…this world is hopeless

Say you’ll never leave so we can make this

Without you…this world is hopeless

Say you’ll never leave so we can make this

Posted in heart, Love, Love advice, Love Letter, love song, Moving on story, New love, song, Song to Friend, Sweet, sweet song

woke up and thought of you…

collegesoccerpro877 — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 08:00:24 +0000

I slept and woke with an image of you in my head. I thought of you, thought about texting you and calling you. Thought of how you were doing and what you were thinking. Thought of the feelings I used to get when you were near, when you were laying ther, naked next to me in bed. I thought of the good times, and how the out weighed the bad. I thought of what this world woulda been like if I have never seen ur smile. How tragic, how life changing it would have been if I never had the pleasure of gazing into your beautiful eyes, a breath taking portrait of absolute beauty, truely God’s master piece. The priceless portrait of the once in a lifetime. Time and time again, you have proven to be more than just a friend. The adventures we embarked on and the thousands we missed. The heart a lonely hunter, and the safari ended with u. The sometimes life long hunt ended short when I first looked into your eyes. Oh the stars that shined in your eyes, how they lit up my late night skies. For days I would get lost in your eyes, only to snap back to reality looking at you staring into mine. I fell in love at an early age, but I couldnt help it. I cannot help how my heart feels towards someone. Her image is forever engraved into my soul. Her beauty, her curves, she is truly God’s master piece. The love, compassion, and lust I have for her at time aew unbearable. She is my love, my heart, my dream, and my life. Without her I am no one, without her I am but a stranger in a crowd of faceless people. When alone at night, I look out my window into the starlit sky in order to see only a fraction of the beauty that I see in her…

Posted in heart, Love, Love advice, Love Letter, Love Lost poem, love song, Moving on story, Relationship over story, Second thoughts, Sweet, Uncategorized

Funny Awkward Night…

collegesoccerpro877 — Mon, 22 Jun 2009 21:16:27 +0000

Okay so to give a little foreward on this story this girl we will call her snorlax, yeah like off of poke’mon so go ahead and get excite. Well I met Snorlax about 2 years ago through a good friend of mine. We hung out some talked a decent amount and lost contact like 8 months ago for roughly 6 months. Well I randomly run into her at a bar one night and i decided to strike up a conversation with her because I was in the mood for some talking and rekindling a lost relationship. Okay reason we lost contact is because we went to a pimps and whoes party and i went out with some newly made friends and i go back in and he she is striping or half way there and gives me the look of death for even daring to step foot back into this house…so I left cuz i was sober and if she was gonna act that way, fine she can have a train run on her ass…well okay so now back to when we met at the bar after not speaking for 6 months. Like i said i struck up a conversation with her and one of the first things to come from her besides a couple of compliments smiles and a total erotic stare down from head to toe. The glare that says i wanna piece of that, she perceedes to tell that she is a born again virgin. That’s cool i respect that, I dont believe you can do that and I dont really value virginity, normally it just means bad sex and i got to play teacher a few times…but a born again virgin, that means she has had sexual relations before but doesn’t desire them now till she is ready to loose her virginity again or for the 3rd or fourth time, nobody really knows. Hell I don’t even think she knows. But she tells me this while I am trying to keep myself from laughing…so I decided to give her a shot I mean why not? People can change, I mean I have morphed into a totally new me the past year almost now really. So I invited Snorlax out to my friends house out off of Bonny Oaks Exit. We get to drinking, we had margaritas and beer for a few hours. My good friends girlfriend starts asking Snorlax some questions because the born again virgin conversation came up. Well at this point she has had quite a few and well the question that came up was last time she got laid…of course being in the drunken altered mindset she admitted the truth where as a lie would have normally taken its place. She had sex this week…hmmm now wait I thought she said she was this born again virgin like a couple months ago and she had sex this week and is still yes still claiming to be a born again virgin? My mind started racing, hows come I cant’t get that lucky, why does she have to make up shit? But then I realized, ohh wait she’s Jewish, their rules must be different…so here I am at my buddies house sober about to wake her snoring ass up so I can take her to her car and then I can go home, or should I leave her here…? Hmmm…what shall I do…

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Torn

collegesoccerpro877 — Tue, 16 Jun 2009 06:56:52 +0000

Torn…

From the love once had

And given to the love now found

All these years that I have waited

And all the the tears that I have tasted

You make worth my while

Love is for the furture

And Friendship is for eternity

For we cannot hide our feelings anymore

Cuz now is the present,

And I don’t wanna loose your dream.

Butterflies at Epic portions with the sight of you

Total numbness when my lips touch you

The feeling of how nothing could go wrong

The feeling you get when you hear her song…

There times in moments

Where you can’t deny what’s true.

Just an ordinary day, like when I met you…

It’s funny how life can take new meanin’

You came and changed what I believe in

And nothing can touch me or bring me down

Cuz I got you…

Posted in heart, Love, Love Letter, love song, Song to Friend, Sweet, sweet song

My Rescue Story

collegesoccerpro877 — Thu, 28 May 2009 03:44:55 +0000

My world used to be a beautiful happy place. Fresh clean air, beautiful crisp water, and always a warming ray of sunlight beaming down onto me. Then I met her… she almost seemed too good to be true at first, but after the years past I saw her for her true state. The demons that burned inside of her and ate her soul, I soon learned would try to devour mine. I could only fight them for so long before I found myself lying there, in the pits of despair. My beautiful world had been taken over by what seemed to be Satan himself. As if there was no good left in the world, and just as I thought the smoke from burning world around me, would steal my last agonizing breath, there from the burning flames you rescued me. I had lost all hope and the will to fight the horrors that had broken me down. But you, my angel, my darling, my baby, you rescued me, and I do know where I would be with out. I would be dead from that soul sucker. She tried to steal my soul and make it her own, but you my dear, you pulled me from her undead clutches and brought life back into my lungs once again. It was the most beautiful sight seeing you with your beautiful ocean blue eyes, which sparkle every time I look into them. You have the eyes of the ocean, and the smile of an angel. The smile that no one can look away from and lets me know that everything, is going to be alright… As if rescuing me wasn’t enough, now you my punkin’ have rebuilt my world from ground up and I must say…the air seems fresher, the water crisper, and the rays of sunlight seem to be smiling down my way…Thank You my dear for all that you have done so far and all the greatness that is to become of us and bring us together…. ………This is my rescue story…………

Posted in heart, Letter to God, Love, Love advice, Love Letter, Love Lost poem, love song, Moving on story, Sweet, Uncategorized

Letter to my Readers

collegesoccerpro877 — Fri, 15 May 2009 19:01:28 +0000

Alot of you have asked me and wondered how I got the passion to write such powerful blogs…Well today I am going to answer a few of the questions you guys have been sending me through email. Which by the way thanks for even taking the time to do so. Okay so lets start this off right, now I do not have a degree in English, and no I am not going to school for English or writing. I love my job as a graphic designer for ARS, they are letting me go back to school thanks God. No I have not taken any writing classes, and you know I just take this as a compliment that you guys think that I have done all of these English things yet I haven’t. But I will say this, yes I was very passionate about my writings and yes they all mostly were for someone whom inspired me to change my life around. I wrote these while realizing how much I loved her and see I just was able to find words for how much I cared but it still didnt come anywhere close to how strong I really felt. I tried my best to let her and everyone know how much I loved her and it brought tears to most of you and awe to alot. I am pretty proud of that, too bad the person they were for didnt give two shits about them and didnt think anything good about them…Great appreciation huh? But when you love someone that much…idk I guess you are able to write like that. I loved her alot, always will, she is the type that will always hold a special place in my heart till the day I die, we went through so much crap together. I think we loved each other too much in the begining (yeah as is that is possible). Our love though was always very loving and passionate, and intense. We went through some serious lows and highs, we changed each other for the better, and became even better when together. I do miss the love we shared, but hey a new one will come again, haha even in my poetry I don’t act like it. It’s life and love its just a roller coaster. You know we did have alot of little bickers but thats because she would do small little things to piss me off and Id sometimes do the same to her. She was insecure with herself but claimed I was the insecure one, see she couldnt get over herself and her pride so she had this huge outter wall that consumed her. But what she didnt realize is that in every relationship u always fight over the dumbest shit and thats why you fight, because its dumb and you love each other. You know its funny though how when you get into a relationship you just get some comfy with routine that it messes up your relationship…I so did that and so do alot of guys that I know. Whats also weird is I never really saw all the things she used to do for me that were her way of saying I love you. See I expressed it more through writings and gifts I made and verbally. She would say some things verbally but she could never find the words…but it hit me after we split ways that so many things she used to do, I overlooked but they were all her small and cute way of saying I love you, and for this I am sorry for. I wish I saw them at the time but oh well better late than never haha. Now a few of you have asked if I miss her and do I still love her/want to be with her….? Hmmm….Do I miss her? Heck yeah I do, I mean she was basically my best friend and lover, we had almost everything in common and did everything together. Yeah other people can always take her place but its still not the same, yet anyways. Do I still love her? Yes I do, and I always will, even though she doesn’t know this because I told her to stay outta my life (yeah weird move but I was heartbroken and said things I didnt want nor mean) I would still always be there for her in a heartbeat. Anything she ever needed I’d still be there for her just because she was family and best friend and lover so thats like an eternal bond that cant be broken no matter what is said and done. Do I still want her or would I still be with her…well that’s for the readers to figure out of course, that’s like telling the ending to a great movie but also predicting the future…but I will say this…she left on her own terms, she played mind games and tried to be able to keep me around whilst she goes out and plays around…doesnt work that way long…As you all have read I tried to stay with her and tried to be with her, but she ran away in search of older (as in like 5-7 years older) ugly men that look like predators (as in the kind that stalk little kids Corrie*). That still live at home with their parents and look old enough to be her dad and dont know how to dress, looks like havent even heard the word hygene….but hey after me I guess a total scum bag is what she needs right?

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Anew

collegesoccerpro877 — Fri, 15 May 2009 17:54:28 +0000

I loved you, but what was it worth? Nothing but a hole where my heart should be, 10 feet in girth. Time lost, and lessons learned. Nothing more to show than a broken heart earned. I took care of of you and what did I get? Nothing but your thirst for more and a puddle of sweat. Curse the Heavens and the kingdom above, curse the firey pits of Hell and horde below. Curse your Heavenly smile and stargazed eyes, curse you burning heart for it will never escape from the black hole you created for yourself. Time is of the essence for the tides of rebirth shall swallow me again and wash me ashore on a new adventure. Escape your hole, for you are meant to drown in the tides of everyone else’s excrement. Heed my warnings and this will be a first, if you would have only would have listened to me, but still your name I shall not curse. No, just your evil heart, and your black soul, for your intentions were never true, just mischievous and uncanny. Was it some evil spirit that took over you, or is this what you have become? Break free of the evil spirit if that is the case, but say in your damned pit if it’s your new face. This is a one time offer to be rescued, to be safe and secure once more, for Im ship shape and ready for anew, hurry up because very soon…I’ll be leaving without you.

Posted in Goodbye poem, Hatred, heart, Love, Love advice, Love Letter, Love Lost poem, love song, Moving on story, Song to Friend, Sweet, sweet song